What does it mean?

okay about a month ago i was with my homies drinking.one of them was 19 and he kept lookin at me i just looked at him and said "what?" he just shook his head and kept acting like he was drunk. a couple hours ped and i was gettin tired so i went to my room the 19 year old was followin me i didn't really pay attention i just kept walkin i got in my room and just flopped on my bed and was a sleep for a while. i woke up and that 19 year old was layin on the bed i just looked at him and he grabbed me and started to make out with me.i was goin with it until he put his hand in my shirt and i told him to stop. he just said go with it. than he pushed me on the bed holding me down and kissin me and bitting me. we didn't go all the way cuz i said i'm pregnant(i wasnt really) but that made him stop ever since i've been having flash backs of that night. i am confused i don't know if thats or what.......................please help i'm really really really confused at the moment.......